ice-cream with irani chai

She looked out from the big window at her hotel room. Dark mirthless clouds, raining and pouring their soul out. Hitting swift and mercilessly at the big glass pane she was looking out of. So much so, the tall sleak and upright buildings on the horizon that usually shone smartly beaming in all their glory in the Sun everyday, now seemed to melt away insignificantly and unnoticed into the dull dreary silvery steel grayness that enveloped the sky and the dampened Earth that it had become one with.

The roads lined with the malls below were desolate, bare of all the shoppers, college students and tourists that usually thronged the sidewalks. And, what was also always swarmed and teeming with children, men and women, the swimming pool and the lounge below were isolated too. Almost rejected.

"The rain has no boundaries. It is the same everywhere. It doesn't decide where to fall or not based on these boundaries. These borders are what we have created ourselves. We are the ones limiting ourselves. These fetters are all our own imposed. It is all our doing," she thought. Almost aloud.

She was visiting the island nation as a tourist. A few weeks into the holiday, and she was enjoying it all. But, the incessant rain today brought back memories. Of back home. It was not just the country boundaries she was thinking about. But, of all the people she had left behind. The people she had tried to build borders against. The people she had tried to get away from.

"So, why do we build fences? Why fetter my heart, mind and spirit?" she asked. The rushed rain had no answers. It simply looked blank and vacantly into her eyes and then with a loud roaring laughter of a thunder, just disappeared!

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: ek tera pyaar (bohemia)
Recent Movies: 3 Idiots (Hindi)

so long, my friend,
here then i rest my pen,
a journey now needs to end,
moments sad, some golden,
away, afar i got to be,
there's none need for me,
let me take leave of you,
i should go, i should really go...

Current Mood: fine
Current Music: tu hi mera saara jahan hai
Recent Movies: 3 idiots

so,
for you, i never really was the one,
strange are the ways of your love,
all's in just days totally changed,
your joy now's in a newer bond,
flung afar, outcast of your life,
beguiled and fooled was i,
disthroned, disengaged of your heart,
yet wishing you well, in silence i depart.

Current Mood: gloomy chaos

burning hanging bridges
trudging along destiny's path
dragging this dead soul
mourning a mindless existance;
expired, is a dear bond
closer to me than my own soul
thrown far away all feelings
none is, never was mine anything;
DIS-CONNECTED, here i go
from each, everyone, all
remote and far away
no one's for me, i am for none!

Current Mood: awful
Current Music: bulla - rabbi shergill
Recent Movies: nenu meeku telusa (telugu)

It's the last few days and what all happened around me that made me totally believe that we still do live in the dark ages. It's hard to believe we are doing anything progressive - even as basic human beings, forget as a community or a nation or a world!

Of all that happened over the past week, just one occurance in the life of someone close to me has saddened me to an extent that I don't think we can do anything to redeem ourselves or save ourselves from this downward spiral. We totally deserve eternal perdition, if ever there is one!

It might be a common occurance and something we hear of in the news, as "something that happens to others", but it hadn't touched someone close in the family in my life so far... And, I am referring to "Terrorism" at home, inside the walls of family.

It's hardly been six months into marriage for my young cousin, a well-educated girl, working in Finance in an MNC, who now has returned to her parents' home after being sent away by her husband and in-laws who've been harrassing her for more dowry. The guy, she found out, does not work and cheated her family into this marriage, just for dowry's sake. The guy had cheated them into believing that he owned a business/a shop in some market... Not that my aunt and cousin brothers didn't try to verify his credentials before marriage, but how could they possibly know he had cheated them by bribing some local shopkeepers there to say he owned a shop in that locality! The past six months he had been taking away all her salary and savings, blowing it up, sold away her jewelry her family gave her... To top it all, he had been harrassing her and beating her up just to get more money from her parents.   

I just wonder how guys can be like this! So blatantly inhuman, so damn shameless.

Ya, she has come back, for good, but scarred physically and mentally! She has filed a police case against the family. But, can even law give her back her lost self-esteem, her confidence, her sense of joy she had before she was married!